“I start to get the weird feeling that nothing is really happening to me, that I am watching a movie and I can turn away any time. I start to think of everything in the third person.”—Elizabeth Wurtzel , Prozac Nation
"The tears come down, not like rain, but like blows.
Homesickness is just a state of mind for me. I’m always missing someone or someplace or something. I’m always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. My life has been one long longing."
“Maybe there is no Heaven. Or maybe this is all pure gibberish—a product of the demented imagination of a lazy drunken hillbilly with a heart full of hate who has found a way to live out where the real winds blow—to sleep late, have fun, get wild, drink whisky, and drive fast on empty streets with nothing in mind except falling in love and not getting arrested … Res ipsa loquitur. Let the good times roll.”—Hunter S. Thompson (via gonnamakeyougroove)
I have strep throat or something of the sort. All i know is I haven’t felt this deep kind of aching throat since elementary days so that’s what i think it is. Tasha arrives today.. why do things like that always seem to happen? You only get sick when you really need to not be sick.
I’m not going to bother waiting on the line for an hour to make an appointment at the military hospital, because I read online that strep goes away on it’s own, and the meds you get from a dr for it only shorten the illness by 16 hours. what kind of bullshit is that?
the puppy has worms. we found a couple white wriggley things where he was laying; later we watched them come out of his butt. I feel so bad for him, so new, so small. he’s going to the vet in the morning and he doesn’t even know.
So there’s an incredible uproar over the Zodiac in the past week, due to an article in the Star Tribune. An astronomer in Minnesota simply pointed out that the constellations do not match up with the Zodiac signs, because the earth has moved due to precession. Everyone on my Facebook news feed and Twitter was freaking out and having identity crisises. crises? Anyway, I saw all that and since I don’t read the Trib anymore having moved out of Minnesota, I didn’t know what anyone was talking about. I felt my heart flutter a little bit thinking about my sign changing, which really surprised me. I’ve never been a huge follower of the Zodiac, I’ve read a little about it here and there, I like reading horoscopes and sometimes they are eerily accurate, but I take it all with a grain of salt. Still, it would annoy me to be told my sign had changed. I’ve always been a Virgo, and it just wouldn’t feel right being labeled as anything else. So I did a bit of internet research, I posted one of the articles yesterday. I was relieved to find out I was still a Virgo even according to the new Zodiac. But with further research, I found that astrologists have always known about precession, and the placement of the constellations does not change our signs. It has more to do with the seasons and whatnot. It doesn’t all make perfect sense to me, I would have to dive a little deeper to really understand it all. I just found this topic very interesting because so many people were upset about something they so readily believe in without knowing anything about it. Which is my same problem with religion. I can only respect your beliefs if you know what you’re talking about. I don’t understand just blindly having faith.
I struggle coming up with a topic when I feel like writing, which is why I often fall into a pattern of writing about myself. After all, one of the basic things you learn in any writing class is “write what you know”. So I guess I wish I knew more.
I wish I was more interested in a variety of topics, but I don’t have one particular passion. I see my peers devote all their time into creating music, or studying biology, or practicing dance. I have a hard time narrowing my “likes” down to one. I can do just about anything and be happy just to be doing something. I am the definition of easy going. But maybe I’m too easy going. My laid-back nature often turns into apathy, and it has definitely costed me many times in my life. I give in very easily. Peer pressure was never very easy to resist, yet I don’t think I really made any horrific decisions. (Besides drinking myself to inebriation throughout the majority of high school.)
What seems to be my problem, is not bad decisions, but rather the lack of decisions. “I don’t care” is a regular in my vocabulary. It’s honest- I don’t care.. as previously stated, I’m down for whatever. But I’m starting to question if not having a preference is an unacceptable characteristic.
I think I just always want to please people, and I’m not so worried about pleasing myself.